Saturday, March 24, 2012

What will make me happy?

My mother in law called today. She wanted to speak to her husband, who is helping us out with some much needed concrete work in the basement. But, before I gave him the phone she asked me to update my blog. The timing of this request was perfect, because I've been thinking about writing for some time.

You see; I just haven't been myself. In fact, I have been down for quite a while. I can't point to one particular thing or incident that has caused me to feel the way I do. Its just happened. And, it sucks!

It sucks because I'm usually the happiest guy in the room. Others expect me to make them happy. I expect myself to make others happy. That's what I do. That's what I've always done, but lately, its more of an act. I feel like there is somebody inside me trying to get out. Somebody with something to say. Something important to do and I don't know exactly how to release it.

I've thought and prayed, pondered and considered, and I always come back to these 2 things:

1) free yourself through obedience and self mastery

2) express yourself by writing

So, I'm going to do my best to follow the revelation I've received. I hope my mood will soon improve. I hope to release whatever it is that's inside me. And I hope my mother in law knows how much I appreciate her timely challenge. It was just what I needed.

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