My mother in law called today. She wanted to speak to her husband, who is helping us out with some much needed concrete work in the basement. But, before I gave him the phone she asked me to update my blog. The timing of this request was perfect, because I've been thinking about writing for some time.
You see; I just haven't been myself. In fact, I have been down for quite a while. I can't point to one particular thing or incident that has caused me to feel the way I do. Its just happened. And, it sucks!
It sucks because I'm usually the happiest guy in the room. Others expect me to make them happy. I expect myself to make others happy. That's what I do. That's what I've always done, but lately, its more of an act. I feel like there is somebody inside me trying to get out. Somebody with something to say. Something important to do and I don't know exactly how to release it.
I've thought and prayed, pondered and considered, and I always come back to these 2 things:
1) free yourself through obedience and self mastery
2) express yourself by writing
So, I'm going to do my best to follow the revelation I've received. I hope my mood will soon improve. I hope to release whatever it is that's inside me. And I hope my mother in law knows how much I appreciate her timely challenge. It was just what I needed.